He admits that he doesn't "deserve you" to Beyonce and remembers a time when he "harass you out in Paris." He asked her to "come back to Rome," which she did, and he feels bad perhaps for ordering her around or for being inconsiderate. He wishes he'd made these feelings public earlier. He admits that it took him "too long for this song" in which he apologizes to Beyonce and acknowledges his mistakes and blessings. And he continues, singing that when his "natural twins" were born, he began to "believe in miracles," leaving him a better person. Jay-Z tells us in this first verse of "4:44" that he apologizes for his past as a womanizer and admits that it "ook for my child to be born" to be able to "ee through a woman's eyes." It wasn't until his first child was born that he understood how much pain he was causing. Thinkin' of all the time, you wasted it on all this basic shit
Your eyes leave with the soul that your body once housed Toyed with your emotions because I was emotionlessĪnd I apologize 'cause at your best you are loveĪnd because I fall short of what I say I'm all about 'Cause I wasn't present, your body wouldn't accept it You mature faster than me, I wasn't ready Said, “Don't embarrass me,” instead of “Be mine” “Please pick up the phone, pick up the phone” We talked for hours when you were on tour "Please come back to Rome," you make it home Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles Verse 1 Look, I apologize, often womanize Hannah Williams wonders for him, "Why do I keep running away?" as he thinks about how he keeps messing up. Jay-Z wishes he were a better husband and struggles with his limitations and mistakes as a human. Singer Hannah Williams lays down the melodic vocals for Jay Z's rap track singing, "Do I find it so hard / When I know in my heart / I'm letting you down every day?" She's singing from Jay-Z's perspective here to Beyonce, his wife. He wrote it down, and now we have quite a bit to explain the details of. He actually thought of the song when he woke up in the middle of the night at 4:44 AM.
He tells us that he wishes he hadn't had an affair and worries about what his children will think of him when they are old enough to find out. "4:44" is Jay-Z apologizing for the things he's done to his wife and to his kids. "I'm never gonna treat you like I should"